be strong please

mama woke me up earlier than usual. she ask me to accompany her buy groceries at econsave. a half an hour later, she knocked on my door and said that my dad had a heart attack and now being transferred to SJMC. like okay, air mata meleleh. so i told bie and pa'a about what happened. then quickly went to bath and get ready. reached SJMC at 3.20pm. went straight to CCU and saw my dad lying, he's asleep. without any warning my tears came flowing down. i just can't bare to watch my dad in that condition.

but i didn't let him see my tears. i had my back face him. somehow a father's instinct right, he knows his little girl is crying. after i wiped my tears and faced him i saw tears running down his face too and he wasn't crying alone, mama was crying too. so it end up with the three of us having tears flow. then after that it got better. abang bbm me and so on. he scold me for crying because by crying i will make ayah worried. but i just can't hold back the tears anymore. then pa'a bbm me saying that she's on her way to sjmc with someone.

as soon pa'a stepped out of the lift, fuhh tears went down again. maybe the leftover tears. hehe. so pa'a hugged me and cool me down. then pa'a visited ayah. ayah said that we look alike. haha yalah uh! so pa'a saw ayah's funny side. had a few laughs and finally its time for us to get out because ayah needs to pee. haa. then went to he lounge, sarah came right on time. she quickly went in and visit ayah. after a while pa'a left and i went back in to CCU. make sure ayah was happy when we were about to leave. kissed his hands and forehead. then said my goodbyes. and here i am now updating my blog.

#my dad have three blockage in his heart. and its at the artery. no wonder he's always tired. not enough oxygen. hmm so next week, he'll undergo surgery :') praying that everything goes well Insyaallah and Amin. iloveyou ayah!

lots of love,

Lily Farhah