positive thinking they say

yesterday was supposed to be a cheerful day. it was my first day working at cotton on, AEON Bukit Tinggi. but hey i can't predict what will happen next right? i never thought that I'd get an unexpected call that will make me cry from morning until the afternoon. I was scheduled to be at cotton on at 6.15pm and start work at 6.30 after a brief introduction. so there was nothing to worry about until my dad call.

so yeah my dad is always cool and relaxed even when he is mad, he will just raise his voice a bit and thats just about it. calmly he said that he can't send me to work. i thought it was because he had work in KL but then jeng jeng jeng. he said that he is in the ambulance and off to HTAR for a check up. at first he went to the clinic in port klang because his chest was in pain and felt like it will explode then the doctor decided to send him to HTAR. at first i felt numb and okay. after a few thoughts i just cried. cried so hard and i don't even care about going to work anymore.

My dad called again and he said that he's admitted to the ward so he really can't send me. i was fine with that because i just don't care about working anymore at that time. then he said that he arranged someone to pick me up and send me to work at 5pm. anything he says, i'll just follow. got ready and all. oh i didn't have breakfast or lunch, i lost my appetite. luckily my eyes wasn't swollen or red. so my dad's friend picked me up at 5pm and i'm off to work with an empty stomach.

reached cotton on right on time. shook hands with kak Ina and then Maya showed me around, so i learned about all the zones. afterwards maya introduced me to wan, nabil, arif, shafinaz and lastly fad. so fad was my working buddy for the day. my work was to handle the fitting rooms. it was fun. and when one person does the greeting all the others must do the greeting too so without even thinking i was doing the greeting also. "hi, welcome to cotton on" always echoed in the store when a customer comes in. did the closing at 10.30pm and was dismissed at 11.55pm. it's tiring but fun.

so ayah was worried because he can't pick me up. he quickly asked my auntie for a favor. and thank you for picking me up that night. reached home smiling seeing mama and alif. but then BOOM! meltdown again. mama told me that there is a possibility of my dad having a heart attack. since the doctor didn't prove it my dad was still not convinced and say that he's still healthy. that was what mama told me. luckily Bubu was there to keep me relaxed. then he told me to eat so i did, thanks for being there. so I went into the kitchen cooked maggi curry with addition of prawns and fishballs. somehow while eating i felt empty. cause my dad is not here  with me. he usually keeps me company when i eat late at night and for sure we'll have a father and daughter talk. BOOM! another meltdown.

so today is my off day. well i'm glad it is. cause again in the morning major meltdown. they got the results already. my dad have heart attack, high blood pressure and diabetes. gosh, bubu and abang was 'bbm'ing with me at that time. they adviesd me to stay strong for my dad and always pray that he'll be okay. they also told me to prepare for the worst to come. i was crying hardly at that time. but then because of them i calmed down and for the sake of my dad too. and yet again today, no breakfast or lunch. just drinking 100plus. haih. i need to eat. to the readers who reads this please pray for my dad's health. thank you :)

truly,

Alili's little girl.

ayah, get well soon and cepat balik :')